The thorn.

I'm sitting here in the gym of the most familiar place of the past 4 years of my life. Being in my alma mater makes me feel happy and sends happy tingles down my spine, but I feel oddly out of place. I don't feel like I belong in here. Been singing for 7 years and acting for the 4th year now. 7 years of my life but I don't feel like I belong anymore. Genuinely miss the choir.

Being in here and listening to my latest batch of choir comm discuss about the night walk plans for later, reminds me so much of myself 2 years ago. Just that I think they are better leaders than I am. I feel like the thorn amongst the roses. I feel like I'm just an extra being amongst this kids. Like all of them are looking at me, wide-eyed, confused, bemused, I don't even know. Makes me want to break down again like I did yesterday.

I don't belong.